Mixed Feelings

There should have been more books written about in this blog. To what purpose, you might ask. For me, it is just so that I could remember what a book has made me felt or the lessons it gave me.

Someone very close to me, a few times said, you're reading useless books. Even a colleague once thrashed fiction as useless and not worth his time reading. I was a bit hurt at that time but I said nothing but just gave him a smile and a small 'I see'.

At times, I do doubt myself. I have been shying a way a bit from reading these past few years, as I suspect that I may have used it as a form of escape or a refuge from my problems. Don't worry, I haven't stopped reading but I read much less now. 

I am a bit embarrassed to say that even when reading much less, this week I have finished rereading 3 books. All fiction, two by American authors and another by a Spanish author. I consciously try not to get new books, as reading them would require much more concentration.

Perhaps it's weird that I would reread books but I think it's the same as watching our favourite movies again and again.

Back to escapism, it's true that reading a book is much easier than writing about them. A thoughtful entry in this blog would have taken much of my time and effort. I just prefer to breeze through them and let them take me on an adventure.

Sometimes I think those around me interpret this as I am not interested to mingle or communicate with them. The truth is, when I am engrossed in a book, I tend to forget my surroundings and everyone around me.

That someone close to me had even scoffed at reading in general and even writing, I suspect more as a reaction to me reading too much than a real dislike for reading. I caught them someone working really hard to edit someone's writing and read tons of reading material to help another person with their thesis. 

I am slightly disappointed that we could not read together, or at least talk about the things we read. It's quite sad to see someone pretending to dislike reading just to discourage me?

The lack of storage space have also forced me to buy more ebooks than physical ones. I still much prefer real books though. 

This sums up my reading habits, for now. Just felt the need to let it all out. Will write again soon if I am able to beat that procrastination monster in me.